PEN AND PAPER POINT

beyonce_knowles1_300_400Am happy because it is Terrific Tuesday and I get a chance to bond with my sweethearts (yes of course you who is reading this is one) ;-). Anyway, on Sunday I planned out a few things that I want to accomplish by the end of the week and so far am proud of myself. This ‘one step at a time’ notion is totally give me excess chakra! as in plentiful energy. If I do not get what I want by Sunday then I might as well burn myself because I will have totally lost the meaning of belief in myself, because i do believe in myself. My energy has just been creased by disappointments and shut doors in life. It is like knowing the answer to a grand question in class and you do not want to say it because you fear you might be wrong. That kind of “stressnai” (yes I watch Love n Hip hop Atlanta and am in Scrappy’s game), that’s what I mean. So locked out, unable to let yourself out yet you can rule the world because you have the power to. Sooo…I got an epiphany last week when I was hanging out with a very special person. He asked me a simple question, “What do you want?” You would not believe how dumbfounded/tongue-tied I was because the processing speed of my mind was amazingly slow and he was like jet that took off a minute ago and landed a minute later in Istanbul (dont ask why I chose this destination because I do not freaking know…hehehe). Anyway, what I mean is that he wanted an answer fast and I still had none. I know y’all girls at this point would probably kill me because you already have a list of flashy things you would blurt out in this situation but they were on my mind, it is just that I did not need them as answer for that question. I needed something more self-fulfilling, something that would leave a mark, if God forbid, I would die the next day. This special one brought things to perspective and I realized that my life was all over the place and I had not defined my goals clearly. I mean, who wants to be an old irrelevant sucker?? Hell no! I aint about that life. So, a question to you, what do you want on your birthday? Hint: something tangible, something worthwhile, something you will look back and make a toast to it in the future. So this week’s edition we will be featuring an amazing, beautiful and powerful songstress a.k.a diva. I know how men drool over Beyonce but sorry booboos, LANES!! Unless of course you shoot Jigga off his throne.

Beyonce has it all covered, I mean from her singing to her performance on stage..Daymm! Mad respect for this woman and she is one of those perfectionists who know the real deal. They make you pay for what is worth it. That is why am featuring her inspirational track “I was Here”. Written by Diane Eve Warren, this song leaves you no choice but to desire to be a legend who would change lives in the world. Diane Warren is a prolific songwriter who has received a variety of award nominations grammy,Golden Globe, academy,,you name them. She has also been successful enough to win some…bottom line, she is fantastic. To team up with Beyonce on the track “I was Here”, they definitely need your attention. Ask yourself what mark you will leave in the world when you are gone. So I hope you enjoy beautiful people. mwaaa!

“I WAS HERE”

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, meant something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I’ll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won’t forget

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I’ve done everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I died
And know that I meant something in, somebody’s life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I’ve done everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I’ve done everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I just want them to know
That I gave my all, did my best
Brought someone some happiness
Left this world a little better just because

I was here

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I’ve done everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I wanna leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here
I lived (I lived), I loved
I was here
I did (I did), I’ve done
I was here
I lived (I lived), I loved (I loved)
I was here (oh)
I did, I’ve done

I was here

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THE “WHY” INTERCEPT

Just one of those days
Just one of those days
Why is ice so cold?
Why are dark clouds so bold?
Why is your conscience so old?
Did the crescent moon unfold?
Destiny is eventuality, so I was told
but does it run on episodes or is its means often sold?
Lo and behold
Did you find it when you strolled?
For I was told your purpose called

Why should I yearn?
Just so my dreams can be burned?
Why should I rise and learn?
yet the lessons strike harder than the scorching sun
Why does my watch say its one
when am not even close to being done?
Why does hope blow my mind like an uncontrollable fan
yet am the prodigal son?
Why is it so difficult to be a man??

Why is the sun shining amidst the rain?
Does this mean there is any gain?
Is it something that can sustain?
Are there three sides on a coin?
or does what I see remain?
Why are there many voices in my brain?
Why are there sad moments that it has to retain?
Why do we walk right into pain?
Why do we ask ourselves questions again and again??

PEN AND PAPER POINT!

Luther-Vandross-DanceWithMyFatherAgainWassup peeps! I know I have been quite MIA but forgive me, I was in my zone. You know that circular zone that never seems to end even when you want it to?? yea that one but amazingly am back with a bang (am sure happy to be back). While in my zone, I was doing a lot of thinking and I thought about fatherhood and its impact in our lives. It is until then that I realized how a father figure is important to children when they are growing. This realization is mostly inclined to girls as they grow up to become ladies. Have you ever danced with your father? I mean either literally or figuratively? How was the song? Were both of you in sync with the beat or was any of you stepping on the other’s shoe? We all know what discomfort that would cause and it would drive both dance partners away from each other. Soo…let me get out of this bush am beating around, if you are a lady and you never grew up with a good relationship between you and your dad, there will be a new chapter in your future that will have a lot of question, a lot of perceptions and worst of all a lot of rejections because you will always be on a different page with male figures in your life. You will not know what you want from them because you never got the experience of what should be wanted in the first place.

Yes, life never got so serious! There is an intricate pattern or maze that you need to get yourself out of before you delve into ‘la muher de mi vida’. You need to establish a discerning sense (that requires your spiritual being) to place yourself in the right hands. Trust me, no one can tell u better than time. You do not want to be 45 all alone to realize something is wrong, that is
why your girl Bee (kisses) is here to square your attention. I have respect for fathers who hold their daughters’ hands, walk with them, and protect them regardless because shows them what a man should do in their lives despite the tides. This in a way empowers discernment in that girchild such that douche bags will always hit their heads so hard if they got something (unworthy) up their sleeves. In this spirit, today’s edition of Pen and Paper Point carries immense commending sentiments for the late Luther Vandross. This man had an anchoring voice that would demand your attention even if you was a crook. He made a mark that still exists in classic blues. Oh yea, his soft punches could kill, if you know what I mean. His song Dance with my Father, having been written by Richard Marx creates that longing for a father figure, that intense relationship that no man can put asunder. People, we do not want to regret lost times we did not capitalize in so if you have a daughter regardless of your age, BE A FATHER! It will be meaningful in that girl’s future I promise. Ladies, if you are still in the shadows because of a lost past…you can always redeem yourselves by being enlightened in the powers that you possess as a woman. Take it one step at a time. Here is my love to you beautiful people.

DANCE WITH MY FATHER BY LUTHER VANDROSS
Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream